Thoughts about the future - 7th July 2020
I don't think our future looks bright. Judging from my experiences with people, humanity is pretty much doomed. Maybe I've just met the wrong, ignorant people. Maybe not. I really hope I am terribly wrong.
But we have steered ourselves into such an evil circle of consumerism & comfort, that almost seems impossible to break the cycle. The solutions has been made presentable, but it seems to be so damn difficult to collectively change our behaviours.
Having a child during these times of the seemingly impending doom seems futile. Except for when it comes to the own peace. With such little time left, I want to be doing everything I want to do, before it's too late. I know it's not nice to birth someone onto a broken world. But however the facts speak, they don't change my maternal instinct, and longing. I wish they would do. I wish I could override my wish to have a child. But I can't. And I can't not live because of fear. I have to push forward. The only thing I can do, is to give the child the best life I can, until the end.
People wants to do what they've always done. Noone wants to take a step down from the comfort, and learn new, sustainable ways to live. We are busy fighting our inner battles, and battles for each others. We are busy making sense of our own lifes, which is confusing enough as it is.
What we forget is that all of the humanitarian issues won't matter when we finally don't have a place to live anymore.
When our landfills spills over.
When the water has all been polluted.
When the atmosphere is saturated with greenhouse gases.
When we sit in our own, growing filth.
When it's too late.
Only then, will we realize that we can't keep on arguing with each other. While gasping for air.
7th June 2020
I'm feeling overwhelmed today.
My father's death, my sisters negative energy, the possible health issue of the cat, the travel ban hindering me from going to work in Norway and Simon's stomach ulcers. It's all been slowly creeping up on me, and today, I just don't even wanna get out of bed.
I just want to lay here.
And breathe.
