Love struggles
My life has mostly been spent in darkness. The road out from self pity and hatred towards oneself has been long, but with one push from the last abusive relationship, I’ve managed to emerge grandly. Finally being able to bloom as the individual
I am. Which is great for me.
But
I have fought SO hard to accept the person I am, with all my flaws that I’ve blamed myself for having my whole life. And when I finally reach that goal, when I finally accept myself for now knowing what I want, I also have to come to the understanding
that by being myself, I am now hurting the one I hold dear. As we wish different things. As I’m now true to my wants.
So, it’s either hurting him by staying true to myself, or letting go of all work I’ve done to become comfortable with my different lifeviews, and start all over again. For his sake.
A relationship is surely about compromise, but the edge is clear at this point.
It’s him or me, and I don’t know what to do.
